The next best thing after acceptance letters are financial aid packages.

You've been dismissed from my life

So today I had the pleasure to go to FACTs Middle School in Chinatown. As soon as I walked in the door, I felt like I was in the middle school version of SLA. It was just so much creativity, and the kids really seemed to love the school. The teachers gave off a family vibe and that they really loved the school just like SLA. When I spoke to some of the teachers they were extremely supportive, and were very welcoming to me. They are very immersed in culture. All the kids even elementary school are learning Mandarin, which is so awesome! I really wished I would have gone to a school like FACTs for middle school, because it was so amazing. Even though, by the end of the meeting I realized I was going to have about a million more things to do, I felt like I would really enjoy working with the staff and kids.

One thing that I wish I could change, just to see my dad waving at a basketball game. Just to see my dad standing when they say my name. Walk me to the locker room and say, "son good game!"

I don't even really know what to say. All I know is, a day that I didn't really see feasible has come and I'm just happy... and excited. My friend from Oklahoma is finally in Philly. We're finally in the same place together. I honestly don't even know what to write. I just hope my mom doesn't do anything to mess this up for me.   

​For Wednesday

Have you ever had to go through the school day holding back tears and trying to avoid collapsing with every step you take? Not many people can attest to that. This was my wednesday, but still I went with my friend to the Emergency room so that she wouldn't be by herself. 

*Monday*
​​I keep forgetting to post these damn stories. So I'm gonna post them all in one post. 
That was for Monday. 


For Tuesday
I pride myself in being able to undoubtedly say that I have found and have practiced the epitome of the word cope. I used to hate that word when it was mentioned by my therapist. I used to think that "coping" was impossible when the my surrounding environment was constantly changing, but always negative. But over the past few weeks, maybe even months, I've been completely peaceful at mind. No matter what situation I found myself sitting in, while watching my friends fret and become emotional over the smallest events, I realized that I am hardly affected. At home, an environment that used to overwhelm me each and every day has become home. Anything and everything that my mother has said or constantly says, has done or constantly does to me does not anger or depress me anymore. I've realized that she is human. She controls her actions, decisions, and wahtsoever. And it is not my responsibility to control her, and it never has been. Understanding that: 1) I can't control her (or any other human for that matter), and 2) that its not my job to has taken a burden off of me. I'm at ease now. 

       My stories have been lacking in thoroughness. I have been posting quotations and conversations instead of my life’s recollections, which I enjoy writing about. Soon I will be back on track, but for now here’s another quotation: “Aerodynamically the bumblebee shouldn’t be able to fly but the bumblebee doesn’t know that so it goes on flying anyway.”